Friday, December 21, 2007

AND MY RED NOSE..............................

You Are Rudolph

Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy.

Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong

Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!

I'M A CHRISTMAS ANGEL

You Are an Angel

A truly giving soul, you understand the spirit of Christmas.

OH HOW I WISH IT WOULD SNOW FOR CHRISTMAS I SO NEED THE SPIRIT

MERRY CHRISTMAS........OOOOOOOOOO HOW I WISH IT WAS A WHITE ONE FULL OF SNOW FALLING BY NIGHT WITH THE LIGHTS GLOWING FROM INSIDE THE WINDOWS WARM AND COZY WITH THE SMELL OF BURNING WOOD LINGERING IN THE AIR.......HOW SMALL THINGS MAKE THE HOLIDAY FULL OF CHEER AND WHAT I WOULD DO TO DANCE IN THE SNOW AND DRINK HOT COCO AS THE FLAKE SWIRLED AND BLANKETED THE GROUND BELOW..................WELL AT LEAST THE IS THE 25 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS ON THE FAMILY CHANNEL I GUESS....LOL......





MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE......I KNOW I AM A LIL BIT SCROOGE THIS YEAR BUT IT JUST DOESNT FEEL LIKE THE HOLIDAYS TO ME WITH THE SAME OLD SAME OLD AND WORK AND BEING SICK..........BUT.........I WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS SINCE MOST EVERYONE WONT BEEN IN ON MONDAY LORD KNOWS I WILL BE AT WORK MONDAY MORNING LOL.......HI HO HI HO EVERY DAY OFF TO WORK I GO.........BUT I HOPE YOUR HOLIDAY IS BLESSED WITH CHEER AND SMILES AND DONT FORGET THE REAL MEANING BEHIND IT...THATS WHAT I TRY TO DO WHEN I GET SO DOWN AND OUT AROUND THE HOLIDAYS......REMBER THE TRUTH AND WHAT IT'S REALLY ALL ABOUT......GOD BLESS

FEELING SO SAD

I AM FEELING SO DONE AND SAD.........AND UNLOVED....EVER HAD TIMES WHEN EVERYTHING FELT WRONG AND YOU FELT LIKE NOTHING WAS AS IT SHOULD BE AND THAT NO ONE CARED........I'M HAVING ONE OF THOSE WEEKS! WITH THE FEELINGS THAT IT REALLY DOESNT MATTER IF YOUR HERE OR THERE BECAUSE IT WOULDENT MATTER TO ANYONE.......TISK TISK............

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

WORK IS MAKING ME CRAZY



ONE MORE PHONE CALL ASKING STUPIED QUESTION THAT DONT MAKE ANY SENSE I SWEAR!!!!! SHOOT KINDA WISH THAT WAS ME ABOUT NOW COULD LIVE PEACFULLY IN A BOX SOMEWHERE FREE OF STRESS AND PHONE CALLS!!!! YEP I AM GOING CRAZY EVERYONE WANTS SOMETHING FROM ME AND I FEEL LIKE AN OCTOPUS!!! TAKING A MIN TO FILL THIS OUT AND RELEASE LMAO.........THEN GO BACK TO THE INSANE ISYLUM WHERE I WORK FOR 9 1/2 HRS EVERYDAY THEN GO HOME TO MY CRAZY ANIMALS AND MESS MAKERS.......THE HOLIDAY SEASON IS KILLING ME I WAIT TILL THE LAST MIN EVERY YEAR AND ONCE AGIAN WORK AND CHRISTMAS AND CLEANING AND TRAVELING ARE ALL CATCHING UP WITH ME......AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!





Tuesday, December 11, 2007

my grandmother and my heritage with the seneca indians

An example of what the kachina dolls looked like that my grandmother used to make and well as story teller dolls...................... seneca nation of indians.......the wolf clan

Member of the wolf clan, the seneca reservation being in salamanca new york.




"We are the spirits as we speak are own songs and walk are own trails, fear not the road that seems to have no end for the journey is a lesson on the earth and you are only a grain of sand"-cheryl









Cant wait to actually visit the reservation one day, my grandmother was born there and was living there for a long time. Her father was married to her mother whom was born on the reservation. However when her mother passed away her father took her and she was forced to leave. She spent her childhood growing up hiding from the law as her father was a bootlegger. Finally she moved in wit her aunt and lived a small life kinda like that of cinderella. As fairytales are always told though is true because it made my grandmother an amazing person who till this day owns a piece of my heart that will always beat just for her and her stories and memories of the seneca idians and there ways i will cheerish with her.